thanksgiving

Although I celebrate Thanksgiving every year, this year meant so much more to me and made me humble and grateful.  Not that i was never thankful before, but so much has happened in my life the past year that it shocked me into reality to realize what is really important in life.  It has nothing to do with money, even though the world is obsessed with it and is so necessary in every day life.  I have been made to realize what the true importance's are in my life, by rediscovering the Lord and accepting him into my life.  I am ashamed that the past years i have not fully given thanks for the simple blessings I had and took them for granted.  I am not perfect and I hope with my continuing guidance from the Lord, I will be more appreciative and grateful for the time i have on earth.  I will continue to strengthen my relationship with him whether I feel I need him in my life or not. 

So this Thanksgiving was a very emotional one for me and I hope I never fall back into the way I celebrated this day before.  My life is truly a blessing.

faith patience and hope.....all will be good in the end.

p.s. my daughter made the best Thanksgiving dinner....thank you honey.

out early

I'm home from my short day in court.   It's the shortest one that I have had so far.  Maybe because the other side didn't show up.  But a ruling was made in my favor, so there really is nothing to complain about.  I have given my thanks to the Lord for the peace and courage he gave me while sitting there waiting.  I was at times so nervous that I thought I was going to throw up.  But I held the necklace, that my daughter gave to me to wear,  when i felt myself starting to get anxious. 

She handed me a box on Friday, that was supposed to be my Christmas present.  Inside it was a charm that is copper with the words..."Keep the faith" stamped on it.  I wear it on a black rope and it definitely helped me today.  Not that i was losing any faith at all, but to just remind me that the Lord is always with me.  I will continue to wear it and especially on my next court date that is scheduled for December 28th.

Thank you for all your prayers.


faith patience and hope......all will be good in the end.

morning of

I'm thankful to wake up to a crisp new morning.  I head into court in about 2 hours and I am ready for whatever takes place today. 

Just want to thank the Lord for the beautiful family I have and for all their support.  BUT....nothing is possible without the Lord.  So thank you for my blessings.

Last link torn......yay.

faith patience and hope.....all will be good in the end.

court date 3

Tomorrow morning I head back into court for the 3rd time.  I'm scheduled to be there from 8:30 - 4:30.  If nothing gets resolved tomorrow, then I'm really going to wonder whats going on with this court system we have.  I'm prepared as I can be, but there is no other preparation than just telling the plain truth.  Can't get slipped up and caught in any traps if the truth is told.  I plan on telling what is necessary to prove my side and receive what the Lord has for me.  I'm not planning or expecting anything in advance, just going in to know that things will be decided.  I'm again feeling at peace and just ready to be done with this portion of my life.  Great things lie ahead and I can't wait to see what's in store for me.

faith patience and hope....all will be good in the end

sleepover

Last night ms. b and I shared our first sleepover.  Her mom and dad went out with friends, so I started prepping her a couple days ago that she will be sleeping with mimi.  She did great.  My mom, dad and son helped watch the monkey cutie.  Everything went smooth.  That little girl can brighten any one's day.  I'm thankful for her being in my life.  I thank the Lord for her precious smiles and everything else she innocently gives us everyday.  Why cant we all stay so innocent and live life stress and problem free?  Isn't that the way the Lord intended?  We all just need to keep moving forward and live our lives to the fullest.  I just know that I have accepted the Lord in my life and will continue to enjoy his daily blessings.

faith patience and hope.....all will be good in the end.

a beautiful day

It is beautiful out today.  I went for an early morning walk and as i headed down the hill, I could see Catalina Island.  Awesome sight.  I feel very relieved today. Yesterday was a big hurdle in my divorce and it ended very quick and productive.  I thanked the lord for the outcome and the peace i felt after the deposition.  I am asking today that the negative thoughts stay away from my mind and that I continue to feel the peace and relief that i have been feeling.  I want to thank all my friends and family who say an extra prayer for me each and every day.  I would be no where with out them. 

faith patience and hope......all will be good in the end.

god, family, health and love

I need to start this post off by giving my thanks to the lord for the blessings i receive every day. 

1) I received some news today regarding the physical i had a few weeks back.  Nothing alarming, but some areas to work on.  I'm thankful that they are things that can be corrected with changes in eating and a few other tweeks.

2) I'm thankful for my family....even though it's hard to be living where i am.  But i at least have a roof over my head and a warm floor to sleep on.  Sometimes my dad can get a lil grumpy and take his frustrations out on people who didn't even cause them.  That's what happened tonight.  So i just try to bite my tongue and just remember that this is his house and I am a guest here.  I thank the lord he's still around to help me through this hard time in my life.

3) I'm thankful I have love in my life.  From my family and good friends.  Without it i would be struggling even more than i already do. 

I am learning that without these 4 important people/aspects in your life, you really don't have one.  You can take one without the other, but your life is really not complete.  To live fully, one must accept all 4.
Count your blessings daily.  I do.

faith patience and hope......all will be good in the end.

Family

Today my family and I took pictures at the San Juan Capistrano train station. There was 12 of us all together...my brother and his family, my mom and dad, my 3 kids and sil and ms. b.  My daughter arranged for this to take place and it turned out very nice. I'm excited to see the final pictures. The picture selection and the different group pictures was perfect. To see my mom and dad with all of their grandchildren reminds me again, that family is so very important in life. I also got to see my 3 beautiful children take their pictures together along with my sil and grandaughter. I love my kids very much..all equally, even though they are all so very different in their personalities. I'm counting my blessings tonight.

Thank you Lord for giving me an awesome and blessed day.

faith patience and hope...all will be good in the end.

7,13,17...more days to go.

The chain

Last week after my court date I made mention that I had 26 more days til my next day in court. My thoughts came out loud and one of them was that I should make a paper chain to tear a link off everyday, to get me through the next few weeks. I remember doing this in elementary school to count the days off til Christmas. Not that this court date is something of excitement for me, but I'm hoping it will bring me closer to the end of my divorce. So, the next day when I picked my mom up, I was so touched when she gave me a paper chain that she had made for me. It was made of perfect white rings and it put a huge smile on my face. My mom was my ride to court that day and she heard me say I wanted to have a paper chain. The kindergarten teacher that she is, kicked in and she went to work. She and my father have been a huge support for myself and my family. We would be lost without them. I thank them both for their unconditional love and support. And for the white paper chain. Tearing away...one link at a time.

faith patience and hope...all will be good in the end.

Living in limbo

I just spent my last night at my daughters house and will now be moving back to my parents house. Back to living in limbo and living out of boxes. No more comfy bed for me. It's back to sleeping on the ground and physical therapy. Since I started sleeping on the floor, my neck/shoulder issues have returned, which requires me to schedule some therapy sessions. I thought by now, I would be living in my own lil place. Sometimes no matter how hard you try and make things work, they just don't quite come together. But like I have said before, my life is in the Lord's hands and he is in control. I will just keep looking for the messages and await the outcome. I will continue to find the positive in every day, while I continue to smile more and worry less. Life is really good and I count my blessings.

faith patience and hope...all will be good in the end.