We are having such a beautiful day today. I almost feel bad for enjoying it, as other parts of the country are being hit with such devastating weather. I'm grateful and blessed to be sitting out on a bench wearing a tank top and shorts in 79 degree weather.
The past 2 weeks have been mentally hard for me. I remind myself what is important in life and i know what those things are. But at times I still find myself struggling to accept what has taken place and continues to in my life. Everyday I ask for guidance and patience from the Lord . He always answers my prayers. I'm fortunate to have him to turn to at all times of the day. He never disappoints or judges. Accepts me for the imperfect person that I am and loves me unconditionally. I have learned a lot the past 9 months of my life. Thank You for the lessons learned.
Happy 49th anniversary to my mom and dad. I know she misses him greatly. I pray that the Lord will help her through this. He ultimately is the only one who can.
I miss you dad.
faith, patience and hope....all will be good in the end.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
10 weeks later
My life has changed many ways since 2011 arrived. Many different ways than I originally thought they would, and all out of my control. So here we are 10 weeks since the passing of my dad. Realizing that time heals in a slow way. My mom and I talk about my dad, as do my daughter and I. Same things are said in different conversations....that we really miss him. My mom is adjusting to losing the love of her life, her companion and longtime best friend. My daughter and I are adjusting to losing our dad/poppy who we assumed would be around for a much longer time. We took for granted our time with him and lessons he taught us.
I wish he could physically see the changes my life has gone through the past 10 weeks. I'm sure he would be proud and relieved at the way I have handled myself and the outcome of decisions I have made. I hope I have made him smile his "squinty smile" as he watches over the 11 of us from the heavens above.
This past week I closed escrow on the house that I owned with my estranged husband. It was a big relief to finally have it close and be done with that portion of my divorce. I'm grateful for the outcome and for chosing to do what's right. Again I was reminded that the best blessings in life, are things that you can't put a price tag on, because they are just priceless.
I'm thankful for my relationship with the Lord. I'm grateful for the family I have and for the people in my life. I'm ready to move on and start finding out who I am and what I'm made of. I want to blossom to the person I am destined to be.
I love and miss you dad.
faith, patience and hope....all will be good in the end.
I wish he could physically see the changes my life has gone through the past 10 weeks. I'm sure he would be proud and relieved at the way I have handled myself and the outcome of decisions I have made. I hope I have made him smile his "squinty smile" as he watches over the 11 of us from the heavens above.
This past week I closed escrow on the house that I owned with my estranged husband. It was a big relief to finally have it close and be done with that portion of my divorce. I'm grateful for the outcome and for chosing to do what's right. Again I was reminded that the best blessings in life, are things that you can't put a price tag on, because they are just priceless.
I'm thankful for my relationship with the Lord. I'm grateful for the family I have and for the people in my life. I'm ready to move on and start finding out who I am and what I'm made of. I want to blossom to the person I am destined to be.
I love and miss you dad.
faith, patience and hope....all will be good in the end.
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