I know that I am never alone thru this journey I am on. I always have the Lords guidance and strength to lean on. I don't have doubt about my relationship with him and the changes that have taken place since the day I accepted him into my life.
While I continue to walk at the Lords side, I am also having to admit that I need some outside help too. I can not carry the gravity of my loss and continue to support others without it. I am not ashamed or regretful to admit it. I'm taking steps to help myself before my relationships/health/mind become truly affected by my denial.
I chose to leave my marriage because I was miserable and unhappy. If I wanted to continue to live that way, I should have stayed in it. You don't leave misery to live with misery. I need to remember that this is my second chance...I need to get my ass in gear and make the most of it. So I'm stepping up and "investing" in my future...one day at a time with baby steps.
Continue to pray for myself and my family. We are all still healing.
faith patience and hope.....all will be good in the end.
I really miss you dad.
